Miracles are Great!!!

First and foremost, I must give thanks to Almighty God, for what he has done!!!! He is amazing and truly awesome. There is no one better than him.

Today, I went to see my lil man. OMG!!!! What it took to get there, was something else. It was my first time since April 1st, that I walked to the train to commute to the city. Good Lord, can I just say that the devil is busy and he was truly trying to steal my joy. But I remained focused on the prize. I have not seen Jaeden since Sunday and I promised that I would go and see him today. Mommy was following through on her word, baby! Since the c-section, I have not attempted to take the train at all, so I did not know what to expect. Man it was hot out there today. Kiara and I embarked on the mission. Well, let me tell you....my first train took about 15 mins to come because I had just missed the train as I was walking down the steps. We stood in the heat waiting and we were very happy to get on the air conditioned train when it did arrive. When we got out at the WTC, coming off the PATH, the walk to exit out the station was ridiculous, and due to all the construction, it was a journey and a half to get to the subway. We get there and now there are delays because of a smoke condition and the trains stopped running. The train came and we made it to 77th St. As I'm walking now my knee starts to hurt to the point where I feel I almost cannot walk. I prayed and ask God to please get me to the NICU because I knew once I got there I could sit and I would be ok when I saw Jaeden's little face. I mustered every bit of strength and energy within me to push myself and make it to the hospital with my knee killing me.

OH HOW IT WAS ALL SOOOO WORTH IT!!!!!

Kiara and I made it to the NICU. Yessss!!!

Now Jaeden....is doing phenomenally well. This little guy is blowing my mind. Thank you Father. Thank you everyone for your prayers, thoughts and well wishes. God is listening, and he is working out a miracle through Jaeden. This baby is progressing amazingly well. He looks FANTASTIC. He is weighing in at 2 lbs 15 oz. My man is a pound shy of 3. Do you have any idea how great that is? That is a milestone. He is eating 13 cc's every three hours and tolerating the milk well. His IV has been decreased since his feeds are going so good. Possibly, tomorrow, he will go up to 15 cc's. To be at full feeds, he will need to be up to 20 cc's. Yes, we are almost there. He is still under phototherapy. It's normal and his bilirubin has gone down. Since there is the constant back and forth with the phototherapy, they decided they would keep him under the lights and wait for it to go down some more. The head ultrasound was done today and formally read by the radiologist. The IVH remains at a Grade II. No change at all, which is good news because that means it is not getting any worse. There is nothing interfering with his spinal fluid, and that is great news. They said it as he gets bigger, the blood may be absorbed and resolve itself. It takes patience as they continue to monitor him and follow-up on the bleed. So we will continue to take it one day at a time.

The time has come, where they have begun cycling him off the CPAP. He is given one hour off the CPAP and then put on the nasal canula. Then he is put back on the CPAP for 4-5 hours. We're taking baby steps but all of this is amazing. JAEDEN IS DOING THIS BIG!!!!!!!

Now, get a load of this!!!! TODAY, FOR THE FIRST TIME, I WAS GIVEN THE CHANCE TO HOLD MY BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still have not been able to fully put into words just how it felt. I was so thankful. I was proud. I was happy. I did not cry then, but I am fighting back the tears now as I type. Today, was the very first time I held my son. God is good!!!! It was extremely exciting. I believe Jaeden was excited also. For me to hold him, they took him off the CPAP at his scheduled time, of course, and put him on the nasal canula. When the nurse placed him in my arms, I was overcome with joy. I talked to Jaeden and told him how proud I am of him and how much of a soldier he is. He opened up his eyes and looked directly at me and he smiled and coo'd. It was truly the best thing to experience. I got to hold my baby for about 15 minutes and it was the best 15 minutes ever. I am ever so grateful for them.

So, I close this post, saying the train ride was so worth it!!!! And I will be doing it again tomorrow so I can get another 15 minutes. Jaeden I love you!!! Until tomorrow, God willing!!!!

Look at God!!!!! ;-)