The Precious Lamb of God: Jaeden's Story: Now Behold the Lamb

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Now Behold the Lamb

This song is very very dear to me. This song got me through the rough beginnings of my pregnancy, this song carried me day to day through out and it definitely got me through the very day that Jaeden was born.

When I woke up the morning of June 6, 2008, I was not feeling great. I knew something was wrong but I could not for the life of me figure it out. Physically I was very uncomfortable, emotionally I was worn out. Being on bedrest for so long and now being in the hospital on strict bedrest with no bathroom privileges at all had taken a toll. My water had already broke the morning before and I was continously leaking and was beside myself because I was worried that something could go wrong with the baby. While I hope for the best, on that Friday morning, it was all just so overwhelming.

I snapped on the nurse that was on duty that day and continued to be very punchy. She was very pleasant and seemed to be concerned about me. She kept asking me if I was ok and asked me to let her know if there was anything she could do for me. I told her I wanted everything to be ok with me and my baby. She then told me that they would take good care of me but ultimately everything was in God's hands. I knew she was right and while I prayed constantly, I didn't think another prayer was going to help.

Ms. Ida (the nurse) came back to check on me, but this time she noticed I had turned my TV off and I had tears in my eyes. She noticed a bag on the floor beside my bed that had some books in it. (I was prepared, as I expected to stay in the hospital until my due date of Aug. 28) Well, she asked me if I needed anything from the bag as the bag was quite far from my reach. I told her she could bring the bag closer and I checked to see if my iPod was in the bag. While we were looking in the bag, we came across my Bible and she took the Bible out the bag and suggested that I read the Word because I needed it. (She knew what she was talking about) I remember reading Psalm 19 through my tears. I sobbed because while my situation was out of my control I knew God had everything under control. I prayed for forgiveness because for whatever reason, I was losing sight of that, at that moment. After praying some more, I then played this song on my iPod over and over and over. I sobbed uncontrollably while thinking about the wonder of God and his Power and his mercy. I was thankful to God for using that nurse as a way to get me to regain focus and to remind me that I had to keep the faith knowing that he had a plan and his plan is perfect. I felt better after that and was able to get through the day.

God planned for me to go into labor, although preterm labor, I gave birth to beautiful boy and everything that I went through was SO VERY WORTH IT.

Jaeden had some challenges to face and he continues to persevere. Jaeden shows me every single day just how awesome, faithful and miraculous God truly is. Jaeden is very precious to me.

Father, Thank you for loving Me, My Husband, Jaeden and every single Baby, and their families, that is in the NICU with Jaeden!!!!!!

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How we got here!

It all started in December. I was sick as a dog. I had a cold, a cough that wouldn't quit and the headaches didn't stop. I remember coming home from work on a Friday feeling like crap. This was completely unrelated to the fact that I had missed my period and was wondering why. When I got home, I took a home pregnancy test but it came back negative. I was cool with that. This was already the third day I was feeling as if I were coming down with a bad cold or the flu. I go to bed Friday and stayed in the bed all day Saturday. My husband kept saying, C do you want to go to the ER. They may be able to give you some antibiotics or something. I thought I would be ok with some OTC medicine. I wake up Sunday, now I'm feeling worse. I finally take my husband's advice and we go to the ER. The doctor's asked me if I was pregnant, I said No. Remember I just took the home test two days before. OK. They said I had some type of upper respiratory infection but they could not give me anything because when they took my urine it came back positive for pregnancy. Of course, I felt like a deer caught in headlights. What do you mean, I'm pregnant? Hello, I just took a test that said Negative. Arthur and I were shocked, but happy at the same time. We discussed having a baby, but the timeline we had in mind, was a little later than this. God had different plans.

Nothing about this pregnancy was easy. Arthur and I were back and forth to the ER. There were episodes of bleeding. I remember leaving work with my sister, rushing to the ER and spending all afternoon and all night, to be told that I may not carry this baby past the first trimester. There was no heartbeat. There was the waiting game to see if a heartbeat would ever show. On another occasion, I went to the ER in my hometown, for them to tell me the same thing.

Finally, an ultrasound showed a heartbeat and we were in business. I was told I had to take it easy. That I did. In mid-March, I had the cervial cerclage placed and was placed on bedrest for a couple weeks. I went back to work and knew instantly that I was not going to be able to continue to work if I wanted to have this baby. After trying to work for two days, I went on disability. I was on bed rest with bathroom privileges for the remainder of my pregnancy. The only time I left the house was to go to the doctor and to have my ultrasounds done at the hospital. In April, there was noticeable shortening of my cervix. This continued to happen. In May, after one of my ultrasound appointments, I was put on strict bedrest in the hospital with NO bathroom privileges. Everything I had to do, had to be done while in the bed. I was away from my husband and away from my daughter. It had to be done for the safety of the pregnancy. I was given Steroid shots for the maturation of the baby's lungs. Dear mother of God, how those shots hurt. I cried each time I got them. Thank God, you only get two. Trust me that was quite enough. On Thursday June 5th at 3:00 am, my water broke, better known as Premature Rupture Of Membranes (PROM). Now there was cause for concern regarding infection. I was put on IV and given antibiotics to fight off possible infection. The next morning I was feeling down because I was worried about the continuous leaking of fluid. Worried if my baby was going to be ok. I cried and I prayed and cried and prayed. I fought to get my spirits up. But I managed to do so. Later on in the day, around 4 something, I started to feel pain. I didn't know what it was. I wasn't sure if it was contractions because the nurse said nothing was registering on the monitor. Everyone thought I was crazy. Hell, my husband did too. I knew I was feeling something and I knew the only person who would believe me was my own doctor. I made them call him and he came running. He ordered them to prep me for emergency c-section. In less than an hour, when my doctor arrived, and he checked me I was already 7 cm dialated. The mad rush began to hurry and get my baby delivered. By no means was it an easy delivery either. The surgery was difficult for me and for the doctors. But Jaeden made his debut into the world on that Friday June 6, 2008 at 28 weeks gestation. I thank God, that my husband was able to fight through Friday evening traffic and make it in time to support me and to see his son arrive. What a blessing!!! I thank my mother-in-law for being at the hospital, I thank my sister and my daughter. I thank my doctor for believing me and for acting so quickly. He said he ran five red lights. Hope you didn't get any tickets. I will end this by saying my son is truly a miracle child. It was later determined when my placenta was tested, that I suffered Placenta Abruptio. If my doctor had not believed me and he did not work as fast as he did, there would have been a different story to tell. Boy am I grateful, that my son was given a chance at life and that God did not find it robbery to bestow this awesome blessing upon my husband, and I and our family.

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